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@ scorrando
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Thank you so much?!?!?!?!?!
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CATS
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And to think after all this time, all I've seen, lived, loved, breathed and bled, it is still the love of my life and distraction is my biggest regret
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Actually Alive
4 min read
Hey Deviants 
How've you been?
It's been so long since I did a proper journal or properly been present on this site, and I'm super sorry for neglecting all the lovely messages you leave 
The majority of you probably won't care, but I'm going to write this all anyway.
A lot of things have happened in the two years I've been away. Last year was hell, I got depressed - the hating everything to the point of numbness + existential crisis type, had to let go of a friend I'd been holding most dear (it seems friendships have expiry dates after all), the MCR thing happened, went through several diabolical artblocks, and I believe I was under enough stress to permanently impair my memory. I never used to suck this bad at remembering things.
On the plus side, I've been teaching myself to play bass guitar and I'm now in my youth group band, I got the opportunity to perform a ballet solo variation in my dance school's show and I started a tumblr blog dedicated to little drawings and doodles - for the purpose of developing my memory/imaginative drawing skills and style (and generally just for the fun of drawing). It's been way more popular than I expected - I've just reached 5.2k followers and I never imagined it would get that far. I've met a lot of really wonderful people there, and received a crazy amount of nice comments and messagess - they never fail to cheer me up 
I also got a Wacom Intuos tablet and the Clip Studio Paint program, and holy moly it is so much better than Corel Painter Essentials 3 
I also got a Wacom Intuos tablet and the Clip Studio Paint program, and holy moly it is so much better than Corel Painter Essentials 3 I'm now in my last year of high school, I've completed all my solo dance exams, and I'm preparing to do a course in medicinal chemistry at uni next year but if that doesn't work out I'm also going to apply for a communication (graphic) design course. I don't actually have any clue what I'll do after either of those.
I don't want to stay in New Zealand - I dislike it here, the government is stupid, it is in no way a land of opportunity, practically nothing interesting happens and while you might argue that my country has a beautiful landscape - that's true, but I've never seen it with my own eyes and probably never will unless I pay my own way. My family fears leaving the comfort zone and would be content to dwell in their bedrooms for the remainder of their lives. I have reason to believe that this may have been a contributing factor to my depression – which although I was discharged from the mental health clinic thing, I don't think I'm quite over it. A lot of the times I spend attempting to socialize just results in me feeling like a complete wet blanket, and the most boring person to ever walk the planet. I still feel numb and empty and so full of apathy. 
I miss hanging out with people randomly. I miss doing crazy stuff. I miss feeling things.
I miss hanging out with people randomly. I miss doing crazy stuff. I miss feeling things.I just keep drawing through everything though. The more I draw, the more I think it's what I was put here to do. I draw for myself, and for the odd person on here or tumblr that might see it and smile, or stop to think for a bit. For the chance that a simple drawing of mine could cheer up a stranger on the opposite side of the world. I'll keep drawing for the fun, and for the solace.
This journal turned out way more personal than intended, but if you're caring enough to read this far it probably isn't as stupid as I think it is. I just feel like I should let you guys know where I'm at, that I'm doing okay now albeit lonely and uninspired.
Oh and uh, I changed my username - mainly for convenience because I understand Terpsichoreanpwrs confused people and was hard to remember the spelling for. StokeTheRage is also a little thing I thought of once, and I've used it as my username on several other sites like Google+, my other tumblr, soundcloud, twitter, etc. If you see a StokeTheRage, it's probably me 
Have a good night/day and thanks for sticking around,
~Salutations
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Le Tagged...
4 min read
Rules:
1. You must post the rules.
2. Each person must post 5 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create ten new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you're tagged if you're reading this". You legitimately have to tag 10 people.
Five Things About Me:
1. Unfortunately I do not have a divers license yet.
2. I personally think that ipod shuffles are the best kind of mp3 player.
3. I am not ashamed of the amount of eyeliner I wear.
4. My 'Myers Briggs' personality type is ISTP - for anyone that would like to dissect my brain.
5. I learn by copying.
Tagger Questions:
1. How far have you ever traveled from home?
Mentally - very far.
2. Are you still in touch with your childhood best friend?
Yes. She lives on the opposite side of the world to me, but we still talk via the internet and land lines. She's actually flying over to stay with me for her six week summer holiday and I'm really really excited about it
3. What's your most prized possession?
Either my laptop, my ipod shuffle, or my little black drawing book.
4. What's your latest obsession?
MY. CHEMICAL. ROMANCE.
5. Who's your favorite author? or What's your favorite book?
Edgar Allen Poe... I mean... just ASDFGHJKlhdksjafdskjahrflagsdhgkhada.....
6. Do you have a dream team of singers? (Two singers/bands that you've always wanted to hear collaborate)
I'm not sure if they would all work well together, but if Patrick Stump, Gerard Way, Brendon Urie, Adam Lambert, Bert McCracken, and Frank Iero all produced something I think I would pass out.
7. What do you most prefer to draw?
People - mainly faces.
8. If you could talk to any person, dead or alive, who would you talk to and what would you talk about?
Jesus - and we'd talk about awesome things because #whythehellnot? #thatdudewassmart
9. Have you ever taken care of little kids?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH
DO NOT EVER PUT ME IN CHARGE OF LITTLE KIDS.
10. What is your desktop background?
Currently this: st.gdefon.ru/wallpapers_origin…
I tag:
:iconinsertsixotherpeoplehereplz:
Questions for you
1. What is the first thing that comes to your mind when the word 'water' is mentioned?
2. Are you an Early Bird or a Night Owl?
3. What do you like to see in artworks these days?
4. Generally, do you prefer happy songs or sad songs?
5. Do you consider literature an art form?
6. Why did you pick the username that you have on this account?
7. Are/were you rebellious in your teenage years?
8. What is your favourite song currently?
9. Roughly how many hours of sleep do you usually get on a week night?
10. Did you know that you are exceptional?
1. You must post the rules.
2. Each person must post 5 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create ten new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you're tagged if you're reading this". You legitimately have to tag 10 people.
Five Things About Me:
1. Unfortunately I do not have a divers license yet.
2. I personally think that ipod shuffles are the best kind of mp3 player.
3. I am not ashamed of the amount of eyeliner I wear.
4. My 'Myers Briggs' personality type is ISTP - for anyone that would like to dissect my brain.
5. I learn by copying.
Tagger Questions:
1. How far have you ever traveled from home?
Mentally - very far.
2. Are you still in touch with your childhood best friend?
Yes. She lives on the opposite side of the world to me, but we still talk via the internet and land lines. She's actually flying over to stay with me for her six week summer holiday and I'm really really excited about it
3. What's your most prized possession?
Either my laptop, my ipod shuffle, or my little black drawing book.
4. What's your latest obsession?
MY. CHEMICAL. ROMANCE.
5. Who's your favorite author? or What's your favorite book?
Edgar Allen Poe... I mean... just ASDFGHJKlhdksjafdskjahrflagsdhgkhada.....
6. Do you have a dream team of singers? (Two singers/bands that you've always wanted to hear collaborate)
I'm not sure if they would all work well together, but if Patrick Stump, Gerard Way, Brendon Urie, Adam Lambert, Bert McCracken, and Frank Iero all produced something I think I would pass out.
7. What do you most prefer to draw?
People - mainly faces.
8. If you could talk to any person, dead or alive, who would you talk to and what would you talk about?
Jesus - and we'd talk about awesome things because #whythehellnot? #thatdudewassmart
9. Have you ever taken care of little kids?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH
DO NOT EVER PUT ME IN CHARGE OF LITTLE KIDS.
10. What is your desktop background?
Currently this: st.gdefon.ru/wallpapers_origin…
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I tag:
:iconinsertsixotherpeoplehereplz:Questions for you
1. What is the first thing that comes to your mind when the word 'water' is mentioned?
2. Are you an Early Bird or a Night Owl?
3. What do you like to see in artworks these days?
4. Generally, do you prefer happy songs or sad songs?
5. Do you consider literature an art form?
6. Why did you pick the username that you have on this account?
7. Are/were you rebellious in your teenage years?
8. What is your favourite song currently?
9. Roughly how many hours of sleep do you usually get on a week night?
10. Did you know that you are exceptional?
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Livejournal communities???? *help me*
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So........... are there actually any active LJ communities for MCR fanfiction out there? Or are they all dead/long since abandoned and of no interest anymore........ 
I've been looking around, but haven't found any yet
Please help me?
I've been looking around, but haven't found any yet
Please help me?
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